I suffer really badly from the January Blues.
I snap at people who don’t deserve it, I have moments of wanting to end it all, moments of wanting to hurt myself, moments where I can’t stop crying – you name it, I’ve probably had it at some point already this month (and will probably have them again before the month is over).
I’m not writing this to excuse my behaviour – all I can do is apologise if I’ve had a go at you and you don’t deserve it. I’m neither in a good moment or a bad one right at this moment – hence being able to write this
I seem to have been hit by it particularly hard this year – possibly as it didn’t hit last year (today marks the anniversary of putting the house on the market – if you were following me at that time you know the full story).
I’m currently waiting for some more help, but these things take time – I’ve been on a waiting list since November.